Give Me A Sign

Today I watched something a little.. inspiring. It was a video on YouTube by BubzBeauty (don't tell anyone I watch her videos), called "Love Your Enemies", and it opened my eyes to some of the things that have hurt both myself and others during the past few years - all because of regret, spite, anger, sadness... 

Revisiting what hurts you most will only cause yourself more pain. So it comes as no surprise that the message she was trying to convey was that we need to just let go of these negative things, and restrict them to further impacting our lives in a bad way. 

I'm guilty of doing this a lot. I allow myself to be open to the pain, rather than being strong enough to lift my head up, and I hate how pathetic it is sometimes. I feel alone and pointless with my life. But why? What for? What does sitting around feeling these dark emotions do for me? If you're stuck in a mess, the only person who can save you is you. No body is really out to care for anyone else except themselves, so who will save you when you can't even be there for yourself? 

I vow to be there for myself this year. I've tried to please others and only ended up hurting them and myself for too long. Though it doesn't come without pain so far.. I'm still alone. Is love dying? I just want to know what is going on  ;_; Give me a sign you're still okay..

.TormentHer